Tuesday, February 12, 2008

The Greatest Love

True power is about loving and accepting yourself without requiring anything of yourself. It‘s for free. For years I struggled to do something, to be something, to achieve anything. I needed the approval of others and it was a slow moving noose getting tighter around my neck.
Growing up in a large family, I made an identity out of achievement and grand behavior. It was a skill that granted me attention and fulfilled my goal of not causing waves for my over extended parents. I never wanted to be a burden, in any way. It went as far as not feeling worthy of existence at times. I felt apologetic for anything I needed. Temper tantrums and demands were so outside of my comprehension I literally couldn’t fathom the act of self assertion. I’m not sure when I developed this incessant demand toward self neglect, but as I grew and developed into an adult, I knew I had to learn the art of expression and courage if I was to ever experience a sense of peace and happiness.
In my twenties, I worked on academic and career achievement continuing an identity I created in youth. It was truly exhausting because what I really needed and what I ultimately experienced were miles apart. Later I found my true happiness was in being with my children. But in my mind it wasn’t spectacular enough. It couldn’t give me a sense of intellectual superiority. This was because my perspective was askew and I hadn’t realized what true inspiration and commitment motherhood held. I couldn’t merge what my soul needed and what my ego required; so I suffered. I tortured myself with all the “shoulds” that life presented. I should be financially independent, I should be specializing in this or that, I should be working my way up the career ladder. What I didn’t realize at the time was that all of life is about perspective. It is never about the situation at hand. How I decided to see myself or any situation was within my control and it changed my life when I began to change the rules of my life.
In my thirties, I finally made peace with the fact that I needed to stay home with my children, for them as much for me. Sure, I felt egoic twinges from time to time, but my need to meet my soul’s desire outweighed my ego’s call to work and do something outside of bottles and fruit loops. It took years for me to experience guilt-free the joy of being a mother. When I embraced my life, I felt contentment. It hasn’t always been easy once I decided to follow my bliss, but I have never questioned whether I was placing my attention on the right thing for me. I was free of needing to prove myself, making excuses, and keeping up with whomever I felt I need to keep up with. As I walked my path, life nourished me when I needed it. Life brought me gifts along the way. It’s the Universe’s way of patting me on the back for choosing me, not egomaniac me, but the spirit that just wants to be and experience life. My power expanded when I accepted myself. I no longer needed someone else’s advice or society’s approval. I was okay if I never impressed another soul and for an achievement junky like me…that was miraculous. After a step toward wholeness, we are pushed and prodded toward really appreciating who we really are. I cannot believe how I once ignored myself, how I put myself down for mistakes, how I never saw the real me. This, I believe, is what God had in mind for creation, not the lower than thou thinking of the past. It’s what we would want for our own children, why wouldn’t the Divine want the same? We are wonders of the Universe and until we can see that, we will continue to suffer and never grasp our true power.
I embrace this power because it is freedom. It liberates me from excuses and from a life less desired. My life is completely my own and it is a beautiful mosaic of what I believe. Life becomes abundant with possibility when we allow it to be. When we own our power, we move forward into our bliss. It is really that simple…loving and appreciating ourselves. Life began with you and it will end with you. When you find the greatest love within, you become unlimited Divine potential. The world is ready for you…

Sunday, December 30, 2007


Got any?
Looking back on the past decade.. mine haven't changed! What's with that? Did I grow lazy in my beliefs for change? Was I self-sabotaging? Or did I just take the easy way out?
I always had 3. One for Body/Mind/Spirit.
1) Body- lose 20# - hopefully w/ a magic pill, sans exercise.
2) Mind- Learn Italian- hopefully by osmosis in listening to tapes.
3) Spirit- Meditate 20 minutes a day- whenever I had some time to spare, & my hair was just right.

Hmmmmm.. I wonder why that didn't work for me.
So this year I'm shaking things up a little. Becoming a tad more realistic, while still reaching for some goals.
1) Body- This year I was diagnosed hypertensive & diabetic. Time for some maintenance here! This year I resolve to eat healthier, to exercise regularly & to monitor for self-healing.
I will be kinder & gentler with this body that I've been loaned for this time around. I will not be so critical & self-effacing. Realizing that the aging process is part of life, & no one gets out of here alive.. I resolve to enjoy the ride!
2) Mind- I have about 1500 books on my bookshelves right here & now. Never been read.. paid top $ for them.. just waiting my perusal. I think it's time. I may not get through all of them before I transition to the big library in the sky.. but I should go out trying, yes? I resolve to read a good book every week.. be it poetry, the classics or a beach read.
3) Spirit- I'm not going to try to limit or measure my co-Divinity here. I'm thinking I should just be 'open' to what Spirit has for me. I resolve to 'listen', as well as speak. I resolve to express Gratitude in all things in all ways.

So that's it for me.. how about you? Tell me what your 3 resolutions might be.

Friday, October 26, 2007

Hello....from Angela

Hey there blogger friends. I just thought I'd take a moment to say hello and wish you a good day. I also wanted to convey how grateful I am in my life right now.
I think gratitude is the greatest prayer on the planet. So here goes...
I am so grateful for my closest friends/family...there are only a few but worth their weight in gold.
I am grateful for my children and for the fact that I get to spend my days and nights with them. I get to learn what they learn and we are lucky enough to share our lives with each other.
I am grateful for a husband that loves me beyond what I ever knew or expected could be possible.
Sure, there are things I desire in my world...but I also know that the world as it is...is perfect in its own way.
I am so blessed to be able to share my thoughts instantly with those I've never met. I am grateful for this sacred connection.
So, what are you thankful for?

Friday, October 5, 2007

The Law of Vibration

"Everything is always in Motion".

We can set things & matters into motion via our thoughts & actions.

These actions/reactions can be negative or positive.

Have you ever been to a mall or a crowded theater.. & you come home to find yourself somewhat 'saturated' with all this confusing energy? It happens to me a lot.

We can pick up other's vibrations just from our proximity to them.

When this occurs, I have to either sit in meditation to cleanse my aura.. or in the least, take a shower.

In the same instance, when I am feeling balanced, at peace, & at 'One' with all that is, I am creating a Vibration of positivity.. that others will pick up on, if they are open to it.

I did a self experiment back in the 80's when I first started work as a nurse. I decided to spend one week using only superlatives & compliments when dealing with my co-workers and patients. I 1st wanted to see if they would 'call' me on it & just tell me to stop the silliness. Then I wanted to see if it made a difference in my life, &/or theirs.

Imagine my surprise when I discovered that the vibration I had put out there, came back to bless me again & again. For every perceived negative happening, I turned it around to create the positive. I freely complimented the docs, nurses, ancillary help, etc.

At the end of the week, I had people telling me, 'I don't know what it is about you, but I just love spending time around you.'

By the end of the experiment, I began to tell people about the whole of it, so of course it lost its luster.. but I had proven to myself & others that we do indeed have an underused power in setting forth a positive vibration!

Try it for your ownself..

Thursday, September 6, 2007


sorry...it's been awhile since I've slept a full night....
The title of the last entry should have been:

The Belief in AN Energy.
What was I thinking? My grammar teacher must be so embarrassed.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Belief in a Energy

Law of Transmutation
(I know there are varying definitions of this law...but this is the gist I get of it.)

The Cosmos is full of constant whirling energy; it is the potential of all things prior to manifestation. That means it is up to us as to how we use this energy. Imagine, at a microscopic level, looking up around you...whirling bits of this and that, just waiting for its entry into the manifested world. Really, the forms manifestation can take are endless and limitless....how we manfiest this energy is based upon beliefs and this is what we experience. So you can see the power the Universe gives us. The law of transmutation is about people transforming raw energy into their daily experience. This flow of energy is for creating and is supportive of growth and moving forward in your spiritual evolution.

Friday, August 24, 2007

The Law of Thought.. just think about it!

Law of Thought__ "You are what you think"
Proverbs 23:7, "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he".

Our thoughts have so much power.. the things we dwell upon, become manifested in our lives on a daily basis.
For instance, if I'm thinking.. "I hate to exercise.. I wish I hadn't eaten that bag of chips.. how come these sweatpants don't fit?" I am dwelling on the negative.. & like a magnet I am drawing that into my world.
If I put the kabosh on that line of thinking, & start contemplating the toned, fit & healthy woman I am becoming.. I attract that 'model' into my life.

Some of you have heard of Neuro-Linguistic-Programming, or NLP. The premise of the whole program is to model yourself after someone who is the top of the field you want to be in. For instance, if golfing were your thing (Lord knows it's not mine.. but anyway) you would study the moves, swings, putts, etc of someone like Tiger Woods. You would envision yourself making the same plays that he does so effortlessly. NLP masters say this 'envisioning' has the same value that actually being on the golf course & practicing for hours on end! Some sports teams have their players do this on a regular basis.

When we 'think' we are great, we tend to live up to those expectations. When we set our limitations low, again we live down to them.
Richard Bach made famous the words, 'Name your limitations, & they're yours'.
For today, let's think powerful thoughts! Let's live our lives 'as if', allowing our minds to embrace our own greatness.
Manifest a superb Destiny!